First Time

WOW!! Last night was the first time my boyfriend came to the club while I was there...sounds scary right? At first I was totally against the idea, but then I thought to myself, "hmm if he come to the club than I'll have a permenate dance partner and we'll get to have some fun together...I can't lose!" WRONG!! The first thing he said to me wasn't, "hey baby you look great tonight" or just a simple hey, NOOO the first thing he said was..."I am so mad at you right now!" Now he's been mad at me before, but never like this. At first I was confused...I had that big WTF look on my face, but then he tugged on my outfit and said, "Why are you wearing this?! You are just showing off all your body to all these other n***@s, you know your only supposed to wear something like that with me!! ect..."(you get the idea..he was hot at me and not holding his tongue for nothin). So after arguing for wat seemed like 3 hours (it was actually like 10 or 15 mins) We finally both calmed down and headed to the dance floor where I busted some major moves on his young butt...lol not really, but we did go dance. The whole night he had his arms wrapped around me and I was in heaven. Even though this experience started off bad, it ended with a bang...that was untill these BONEHEAD boys started fighting just because they could. Of course me being the little person I was i hopped on the nearest table to see what was happening and as soon as I stood up people came rushing towards us becuase the fight had spread. So I had to grab my stuff, boyfriend, and try to find my friends to make sure no one had hit them. So I guess they eventually got the fight outside, which was good, but then they gone say the party is over and everyone leave...I was looking like, "I'll be damned if I go out there with all those big boys fighting, both me and my boyfriend are some midgets so we have no chance." :) When I heard it was all over outside I started heading to the door and as soon as I hit the corner I was thrown over some wooden block that came out of no where by all these big football boys, fun right? By the time I was pushed outside my dress had fallen down to my stomach and well it would've been embarrassing if everyone wasn't watching the fight. Somehow me and my friends got to my friend's truck and we headed back to USM where I said goodnight to my hubby...what a night huh?

The middle man...well woman

Today I'm going t write about my current situation with my friends. I am the middle woman, meaning I have two sets of friends who all used to hang together, but now they don't. My first year here I was rooming with my high school best friend, big mistake!! Let's just say that just becuase you spend 24 hours 7 days a week with someone doesn't mean you can live together. ( don't think too hard on that statement, it's really not that complicated) :-) Long story short, we just started talking again 2 weeks before school started. wow right? well in a general since, everyone on my floor last year were pretty close, especially they girls on my end of the hall. We all were best friends by the end of the first month of school, it was very rare that you saw one of us alone, if you weren't there when we met you would swear we had been friends all our lives.

Well as the year progess, me and my high school BFF started to get to the point where we couldn't stand to be togther at all, even when all of us were together in a group, you could still feel the tension between us, even our random associates noticed it when they would come to speak to "the gang". Finally we just stopped talking all together and she was sort of "kicked" out the group. (I had a large influence on that decision, and i'm acutally kinda proud of it too...lol) Needless to say, my roommate and I ended our first year of college with each other in complete and utter silence, we didn't even say good bye to each other, sad right?

So it's a whole new year and I'm of course still with my same group, and surprisingly talking to my old roommate again. The problem is that she is not talking to my other friends who all used to be her friends ( the weird thing is that she is the one that introduced everyone to each other, if it wasn't for her we probably wouldn't be friends at all). So I am the middle woman, when my group of friends are with me and she passes by without speaking to them I somehow feel guilty. the situation is starting to get to me becuase I am a very nice person and I do not like for people who were once so close to not even speak to each other. But oh well, I just gotta suck it up and move one with my life becuase their situation isn't really my problem.

HOpe I didnt bore you too much

I think I finally got it!!

Yep I think i finally got it right with this one. He is smart, cute, funny, hard working, and just an all around good guy. Sure I've gone through the whole puppy love/first love thing but this time is different. There is something truly special about this guy and I'm so greatful that I have found that guy for me at such a young age. Some people may think that having a boyfriend in college is a bad idea, but I've done the whole partying thing and club hoping my first year and it's now out of my system. Some people are just made to be in a relationship and I am one of those people. Sure I still go out, but not half as much as I used to.
It's been hard adjusting to havin a boyfriend and my bffs. At the beginnin of the year it was hard to balance out my time with both because last year i spent pretty much all my free time with my friends. We stayed on the same floor so we were havin constant sleepovers and were really with each other 24/7 BUT when I got a boyfriend over the summer I devoted all my time to him. He was the first voice I heard in the morning and the last one I heard at night before I went to bed. They were both jealous of each other but they good now.
So yea, from the outside looking in people may think we are growing apart, but they would be WRONG because we are just growing up and thats wat life is all about...growing up..yay!!

Yep I almost killed myself over the holiday...

So I know that from reading the title you are probably thinking that I am sucidal...I'm not. I almost indirectly killed myself Tuesday. It was a normal boring day at home with my little sister and brother. Both my parents were gone to work so I was just being lazy around the house. My day was pretty much filled with talking on the phone, watching movies, and eating. I was on the phone with my boyfriend and he asked if I wanted to come over. Being the loving girlfriend I am I said yes and hopped in the shower and headed on my way. Now there are three things wrong with me going to see him, 1 I left my younger siblings at home alone (even though they are old enough to be alone for a while), 2 my parents don't know I was gone, and 3 I am grounded for two weeks from seeing him. So, despite those reasons I should've stayed my butt at home, I still went on my happy little way. Since my boyfriend generally stays up the highway from me and I know the back roads pretty well, I was speeding to get to him. My ride was going smoothly untill I went into a curve I underestimated. As I was going into the curve, I knew something wasn't right. My back tires started to slide on the road and the next thing I knew I was swirling and swurving down the road like I was a toy car being controled by a 3 year old over active boy. My whole life flashed before me, I truly thought I was going to die. I felt my car life up like it was preparing to flip when I can sliding into a ditch and a fence. Thank God. After what seemed lik forever I finally calmed myself enough to call my boyfriend to tell him what happened and to come get me out this ditch. I was shaking all over as I began to think what my parents were going to do when they found out about this. I eventually used my noodle and worked my way out the ditch..thank God for 4 wheel drive. By the time my sorry a$$ boyfriend made it to where I was out the ditch and drivin da rest of da way t his house. We met each other about half way and drove back to his house together and had a wonderful time with his family. So that is how I almost died...yep u guys almost lost me. :-)